Temptations

I'm going to start off this blog with a bible verse and then after the bible verse is posted, I'm going to share with you all, my thoughts and reflections on that bible verse. Here's the bible verse: " Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to our sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed. For ye were as sheep going astray; but are now returned unto the Shepherd and Bishop of your souls." ~1 Peter 3: 24-25.
Now my thoughts and reflections on the above bible verse are probably the exact opposite of what the thoughts and reflections really are. Lately I've been looking back to my terribly bad past and then looking ahead to my much better present life and I've been comparing the two and I've come to the conclusion that I haven't really changed much at all and that's because some days I wake up feeling hopeless and depressed because of the stupid things that I still do now at this very present moment just like I did back then. For example, I still can't say no to certain temptations that I'm still facing today with a certain person, and it's the absolute worst feeling in the entire world. Today, resisting all of those temptations is harder than ever. In my mind, I keep thinking that God is still very displeased with me and that I'm not going to heaven to spend my eternal life with God and that since I keep messing up, I will never be able to go to heaven like I want and am hoping to go when I die. God, please forgive me for I have sinned against you in my own thoughts, words, deeds, & heart's desires. Lord, I really don't want to go to hell, please Lord don't make me go to hell,I don't belong there Lord, I belong in heaven with you Lord. Lord, what else can I do for you to make sure that I'm going to heaven,where I belong?
Lord, life down here on earth is so difficult , & I don't want to be here any longer. Lord, I just want to be with you & not with Satan, because he'll make my life an even more living hell than it already is right now at this very moment. As a matter of fact, Lord, I want Satan to be away from me and out of my life forever. Lord,Satan is really bad news for all of us, please Lord, Make Satan disappear from all of our lives completely and permanently. Lord, please please help us all to be better followers,better obeyers, and better listeners for you oh Lord. Help us to always come back to you Lord, after we've messed everything up time and time again. Lord, these things need to stop ASAP! Starting right here and right now. Please help us to keep on going and moving forward with our lives no matter what, in a happy, healthy, positive way. Please help us to stand firm & to let absolutely nothing move us, so that we have more time to spend with good friends and family more often than not. Please let our yes be yes and no be no. Please Lord, help us to not fall anymore for anyone or anything. Help us to just fall for you, Lord. Lord, please help us to stay strong and to be confident in knowing that you have a plan for us, but before you reveal the plan to us, we need to let you be in complete and total control of our lives, so that none of us need to worry about anything anymore. Lord, we are the broken and you are the healer, you are the potter, we are the clay. Please mold us and make us into who and what you want us to be. Thank you for everything Lord, we love you, Amen."

~Emily