Reflections

Have you ever taken the time out of your day, to just sit back and reflect on everything that has happened to you in the past and present? I know I have. After I got out of work today, I spent the rest of the day with a very special person and we were just sitting by the pool and talking,but then there was silence and that's when I took the time to really reflect on everything and try to figure out How I got to this point in my life and I was wondering what to do next. I found myself wondering what this summer will bring and how it will be a lot different than last summer. My answer came to me and I said to myself, this summer is going to be the summer of new beginnings and good things happening not to just myself, but to everyone around me including mike (special someone), the Lord has something really big planned for mike and I and everyone else around us. I find myself getting excited and becoming more interested in what's going to happen. Also, as I was reflecting on things, mike popped in my mind, but that's nothing new because I'm always thinking of him and wondering if he was having the same thoughts that I was today, so that we can relate,but I didn't say anything, I wish I said something now though, I really wish that I did say something because mike could easily relate to me on the things that I was thinking of and that would have led to a really good conversation. It's quite obvious I still have strong feelings for mike, I'm just curious as to when things between mike and I will really start being put into place for us. Something is coming together for us, I Just don't know what it is or when it will happen. God is never late, God is never early, he's always on time. God's timing is really perfect. I just wish that I could like be inside God's mind and see what he has planned for us. Whatever it is, I bet it's really amazing and cool.
I wish I knew God's thought patterns, I really want to get to know the real Jesus and who he really was and still is today, I wish to gaze upon his face and actually be physically in his presence. I just think that it would really be so incredibly awesome and awe-inspiring and mind boggling. Oh how I dream of the day,I'll be seeing his face. I wonder if Mike ever feels the same way that I do about the real Jesus, I bet he does. God has blessed me richly and gave me mike as one of his own. Mike is like my guardian angel whose always looking over me and making sure that I do all the right things and make all the right decisions. But without GOD, mike wouldn't be able to help me do any of these things. Nothing is impossible with GOD on your side. GOD will help you fight the good fight whether alone, or not no matter what. Although, a lot of the time, you don't always see the good things and you don't always see the blessings, but trust me they're there. It may take a while to finally realize what this blessing is, but as soon as you realize it, it blows you away. It blows your mind. It really and truly does. GOD is awesome! I want GOD to open my heart and open my mind, and I want his presence in me so that I can be a blessing to everybody that I meet. I could change people's lives forever, I just wish I knew how to go about doing that. I don't know if it's through my writing, singing, talking, or reading, but what I do know is that no matter what GOD will use you in ways that you never knew existed before. I know that I've already changed Mike's life and Mike has already changed my life and even my little nephew, Eliot has changed my life. Mike and Eliot make me want to be a better person, a positive influence, a blessing, a light in somebody's life, etc.
They make me want to keep working hard at whatever it is that GOD has made me for, my place on this earth so to speak and even in heaven. What does GOD want to use me for? I have no answer to that, but I'm sure GOD does and he will tell me what exactly it is all on his time, I'll be sitting here praying and being persistent and waiting for my answer. Once I get that answer, I'll welcome it with a whole heart and singleness of my mind. "I can do all things through he who strengthens me." I'll be more than willing to do whatever it is that he wants me to do, hopefully with supporters and followers. Anyway, I hope that this blog doesn't confuse anyone, I just want to try and get my point across to people with as little confusion and frustration as possible. I'm just trying to reach out to people and make a really big difference in this world. I want people to understand where I'm coming from and what my point of view is. All I can say is to keep praying and being persistent with the Lord. If you stay persistent with him, then all good things will come your way even though you don't always see or understand what this certain good thing or things is yet. It may cause you to hurt, suffer, etc. But there's a reason for everything, there really is,please just trust in the Lord and in myself. In conclusion to all of this, I just want to say May God richly bless you, your family, your friends, your relationships and futures, and all the future children of God. Amen!