Thursday, December 19, 2013

Be Still

  Good Evening everybody,
      I know that my last blog entry was a little less cheerful than it usually is.  There's just a lot of stuff going on around here, that isn't much great news.  All we can really do is pray about it and wait on The Lord to provide for us all that we'll need.  We have to learn how to be content with what we have, even if it isn't very happy news.  Anyway, we're going to move on now.  So, last night I was up late and studying God's Word like I usually do, I wasn't expecting anything to happen to me last night, but God proved me wrong once again.  I was reading the Bible App on my phone, and this was what the daily Bible Verse was telling me last night:  "Hear, O Lord when I cry with my voice! Have mercy also upon me, and answer me."  ~Psalm 27:7.  

    As I was reading this last night, it suddenly became very clear to me, that God was speaking to me like he always does, but this time around He was speaking to me in a different way than ever before.  God lead me to share this word with you all:  This is how I've been feeling lately, I'm beginning to wonder if He hears me at all; I'm really starting to get desperate for His answers here, I'm having tons of unanswered questions going on in my mind right now; this is especially based on the series of current events taking their place in my life currently,  I'm legit grasping at straws here and He already knows that; He also knows that I'm at my breaking point right now! This could mean two things: 1.) He's preparing me for something new and different or 2.) He's going to put me in a "fire," to test my faith and to see how well I'm to deal with whatever the outcome of this certain thing will be.

   So, once that I'm able to prove myself to Him, it is then, when He will give me His reward for being His good and faithful servant.  However, I won't lie, but I am a bit scared to see what this, "fire" will bring and How I'm able to handle it according to His Will; Whatever it is, He will help me or us get through it together.  He will always provide for us no matter what.  I'm hoping and praying that it will be number one and not two.  He's the only one who knows what this something will be.  We won't know what it is until He reveals it to us on His time and not ours.  He needs and wants us to learn how to, " Be still and know that He is God; He wants us to know that He will be exalted among the nations, that He will be exalted in all the earth! The Lord of hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our refuge.  Selah!" ~Psalm 46: 10-11.  

  I truly believe that what God is trying to tell me in the above Bible Verse is this: He's telling us to rise up and to raise our voices among all the nations  and in all the earth to prove to them that He is real and that He will be coming back stronger than ever in His Second Coming, and it's going to be sooner than we think.  He needs us to be prepared for His triumphant return, but if we aren't, then we better start and it has got to be quick and incredibly soon, so start today! Today's a new day and it is another second chance to turn over a new leaf and we have to start fresh.  He gave us a new day and a different chance to change our own lives for the better so that we are able to change the world in order to make it a Holy Place once more.  Agreed? Thank you Lord, I love you, amen! Goodnight and God Bless!

~ Emily P.

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Love and Faith

  Good evening all,
      I know that it's kind of late, but I feel led to share with you all what God spoke to me through His Word last night while I was reading my Joyce Meyer Devotional.  It's based off of Philemon 1:4-7.  This is what it says: "I thank my God, making mention of you always in my prayers, hearing of your love and faith which you have toward The Lord Jesus and toward all the saints, that the sharing of your faith may become effective by the acknowledgement of every good thing which is in you in Christ Jesus.  For we have great joy and consolation in your love, because the hearts of the saints have been refreshed by you, brother." ~Philemon 1: 4-7.

    When I read these verses last night, I said to myself, wow, amazing!  Thank you, Lord!  They spoke to me loud and clear last night.  Here I go into my rant about how I've been feeling lately and how these verses had spoken to me.  Recently, I've been feeling all stressed out, overwhelmed, anxious, and like I just can't keep doing what I'm doing anymore, it gets to be quite exhausting.  I need a vacation away from everything going on in my life currently.  It's been quite a struggle actually and I just can't deal with it anymore.  All of this pressure has been placed on my shoulders and I don't like the way I'm feeling because of it.  I just keep hoping and praying that something brand new, big, and good will happen to all of us sooner rather than later; I'm sure that you all can relate to this specific topic.

  I'm way in over my head here, and that needs to stop immediately.  "God, I need you, please help! Amen"  I have so many prayer requests coming my way and I try to pray for all of them in one day, and it takes a lot out of me.  I know that the power of prayer will always work.  It is just way too much for me to deal with at this time, but I will try my best and do what I can to pray for others.  I have some unspoken prayer requests of my own and I'm just so busy trying to pray for everyone else, that I just forget about myself.  I wouldn't consider it a mid-life crisis, but it is just getting to be too complicated to deal with at this time.  I'm beginning to wonder if my prayers are actually working and if He hears them all.  Will he ever answer me or will I be stuck like this forever?  It's taking quite a long time, and I'm not a very patient person when it comes to something that I really need and want.  I know that it is all on God's timing, and not my own.  But I'm really starting to get sick of waiting.  I want these things done with yesterday, I'm sorry but that's just our human nature.  I'm not perfect by any means, I still have a lot of work to do and God already knows that.  So, I'm desperately seeking His help and hoping He will do a new thing soon in all of our lives, mine especially.  

    I've been so busy with working that I barely have enough time to do anything anymore.  I just need a break, and God is the one who will either give me this break or not.  All of this is up to Him, not me.  It is His Will, not mine.  The biggest dream that I have for my life is to get published and to become a Christian writer.  I recently received an offer to get published by a friend of mine, and it may take a while, because this friend of mine has her own things to deal with right now, so I'm asking you all to please pray for my friend to get the miracle that she needs and also that she deserves, because she's had a rough life and she deserves the world.  She is such a great person and she is doing such great things to help all of those kitties in need.  Please, God, bless her and give her the miracle that she's been waiting for.  If you're interested this is the link to her page, please go and "Like" the page and help her to raise the money that she needs to find a good forever home that she can take her cats with her, because she's dealing with a very dishonest and disrespectful person, so please go and help her out, she desperately needs it, thank you: https://www.facebook.com/JakieTheCat
   God Bless and I hope that you all have a good night!
~Emily P.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

This is a poem I'd like to share with you all

We furry ones want to thank God above
for the human hands that show us love.
For the loving hands that stroke our backs,
rub our bellies and give us snacks.

For once we were afraid and alone.
No one to love us, no place to call home.
Some lived in the street, looking in trash
for food to eat.

Some of us had humans who used to hit.
We trembled in corners afraid of it.
But someone reached in and touched
our paw, held us in their arms
and that old life was no more.

They worked with us and loved us through,
showed us something that we never knew.
That humans could be gentle, loving and
kind and if we were naughty, they didn't mind

Because they knew we were acting as fur
kids do and didn't mind that their home
was a zoo.

Somehow these humans looked in our
eyes, seeing the life that to them was a
prize.

Our spirits may have been broken,
battered and bent, but we responded
to the love that was heaven sent.

So this Thanksgiving Day, we thank
God above, put our paws together
and thank him for the love.

(c) Heidi A. Dietrich
(Dictated by the kitties of course!)

(This is for all the hoomans who lub furry children and have given us homes! We lub you!)

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Christmas Wishes

Good afternoon everyone,
   This blog will be a bit different than any of my previous blogs.  I hope that you'll enjoy it as much as I will.  Now this idea came to me last night when I was updating my Christmas Wish List.  I know, I know, it's still a little early to be thinking of Christmas, but it'll be here before you know it and then it will be gone in the blink of an eye like always.
       This is the Bible Verse I chose to go with this blog, even though the outcome of it will be the exact opposite as to what you were expecting from this.  "And she brought forth her firstborn Son, and wrapped Him in swaddling cloths, and laid Him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn."  ~Luke 2:7.  I just want you all to remember that, "Jesus is the reason for the season."  None of us really need all these materialistic things that we write down on our Christmas lists every year.  Yes, they're great, but do they really make you happy? Probably not like Jesus does.  Anyway, here's my idea of a very unique Christmas list that doesn't have all of these materialistic items on it.  

1.) How about good health for those that are so sick and suffering every single day of their lives.  I wish I could give my dad a new pair of lungs, but I can't, only Jesus can do that.  He's the great healer and physician.
2.) How about reconciliation for all broken relationships all over the world? That would be great right?  Yes, it would be.  It takes one person to make one simple difference in the world, so maybe you should all try it sometime. Agreed? Yes, I think so.  Today's a new day, and good for new beginnings.  Just go do it! You'll feel better once you do it.
3.) How about world peace?  We all want that, but sadly it won't happen until Jesus comes back one day soon.
4.) Revival.  I would love to see revival all over the world and in all kinds of different churches and states.  We Christians need to work together and make that happen as soon as possible, don't you think so? Yes?  I say, yes indeed.
5.) How about feeding the hungry? That would be great too, wouldn't it? Well, guess what, you are that one person to make that one difference in this struggling world.  In the Bible it says that " You can change the world by one act of random kindness at a time."  It would be an absolute miracle to see everybody all over the world share their act of random kindness with everyone.  It takes just one person to make that difference, so get out there and get started, got it?  Who cares about what other people think of you, you are doing this for Jesus, not for yourself.
6.) Be the hero that God made you to be.  Go and save one person's life or an abused or rejected animal's life.  Pets really are a person's best friend.  You just need to take that first step.
7.) What about saving those that are unsaved before it's too late?  Think of how much better the world would be by doing so.  Because of Jesus and his followers this world is a much better place to be.
8.) How great would it be that every last animal who has been abused, living on the streets, in foster homes, in shelters, been rejected year after year, is starving, etc. to be adopted?  That would make all of us animal lovers and Christians and Jesus incredibly happy, don't you agree?  You better! Keep looking up and keep your eyes on Jesus.
9.) How about all of the orphans all over the world will become adopted?  That would be a major blessing to Jesus and every last one of us in this evil, violent, and mean world.  That's what God wants, so make it happen! Start right here, right now! Go, do it! He's waiting.
10.)  How about doing your job with joy every day of your life no matter what that job is or how bad it is?  That's what God wants too.  We are here for a reason and that reason is to do everything you do with joy, be a cheerful giver,  stop being selfish, look around you and see how amazing this world really is.  God created it for us to enjoy it and not reject it, and make it gross.  We are to take care of here, not destroy it.  See what I mean here? I want you all to read this and then reflect on what I'm saying here and be the change that you want to see in this world.  Help someone, save an animal from being euthanized, give a random sum of money to someone who needs it more than you do,  become a good friend with someone who is lost and bring he or she closer to God,  call up a forgotten relative or an old friend and just say hi, write them an e-mail, take them out for coffee, just talk, write them an encouraging letter, do whatever you want for the good not the bad of this world.
Don't forget to do all of this according to God's will and with an open mind and a joyful heart.  God Bless and have a good day my fellow bloggers!  Keep praying and looking up!

~Emily
p.s. Check out my other blog too: http://mymissionforfashion.blogspot.com/2013/11/fashionably-christian.html

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Be Anxious for Nothing

       Good Afternoon everyone,
            I just wanted to share what The Lord has been laying on my heart lately.  He's speaking to me louder than ever before through these Bible Verses:  "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."  These verses are found in Philippians 4: 6-7. 

    I didn't choose these Bible Verses, it was God who put them on my heart and brought them to my attention.  Anyway, I've been feeling quite stressed out and anxious lately because of all that's currently going on in my life.  It seems like it's just too much to handle at times, especially right now.  I don't even know what to pray about anymore,  there's a lot and where do I even start?  I feel like I'm drowning in my thoughts and there's no way out.  I know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I'm just not really seeing the reasons for why this is happening to all of us.  "Jesus, if you can hear us, we need you and more answers, you are the great physician and only you can heal the sick and raise the dead in us.  Please help! Thank you, lord, I love you amen."  "Lord, please take these burdens off of our shoulders, we can't handle this anymore, I'm letting go and letting you take control, I give up, I can't do this anymore, enough already, thank you, Lord, I love you, amen."  

  The Lord lead me to share this with all of you, and I hope you enjoy these blog updates as much as I do.  So, I guess my thoughts and reflections on the above verses will be this:  I'm thinking that God is trying to tell us to not be anxious and let him take care of these current situations.  There is a reason for all of this, but I just don't know what it is yet.  None of us know the reason for this yet.  What can we honestly do here?  All we can really do is have faith and keep praying about these tumultuous occurrences in our otherwise peaceful lives.  All we really want is answers and a cure, there's just nothing else we can do at this point.  It's out of our hands, it's in God's hands now.  Thank you and God Bless! Have a good rest of the day.

~Emily

   

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Has The Lord Spoken to you recently?

     "Has The Lord indeed spoken only through Moses? Has He not spoken through you also?" ~Numbers 12:2.  Here are my thoughts and reflections on the above Bible Verse: The Lord always speaks to us through His Word, or at Church, basically anywhere there's peace and quiet.  However, we don't always want to listen to what He has to say, and sometimes we don't even make "time" for The Lord, so to speak.  But the truth is that no matter how busy you might be, you should always find some time to spend in The Lord, and in His own Word.  If we all made time to spend with The Lord, think of how much better this world could be.  I'm not perfect, I'm far from it.  I had to learn the hard way, on how to 
clean up my mess of a life.  I was probably one of the absolute worst sinners of all, but by the grace of God, my life was saved, and I'm trying to turn into a better person because of God himself.  

       Believe me, this is not an easy task by any means, but it will really be worth all of the trials and tribulations at the end of your life: when your sitting at the judgement seat of God, we're all going to face the harsh judgement day of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.  There's absolutely no possible way to avoid any of it, so don't even try to get out of it, because it's not going to happen, especially because The Lord will not allow it, got it? I hope so.  

     Let's move on to the second Bible Verse here: "They gathered together against Moses and Aaron, and said to them, "you take too much upon yourselves, for all the congregation is holy, every one of them, and The Lord is among them.  Why then do you exalt yourselves above the assembly of the Lord."  ~Numbers 16:3. There's absolute truth in the Numbers 16:3 passage because as Christians we often get persecuted in foreign countries for what our beliefs are.  It's pretty stupid if you ask me, there's only one God and only one way to be saved, and that's through the one and only Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior.  "You come to the father only through me."  Read the Bible, that is Jesus speaking to us through His Word.  If you like it, great, and if not, then go away, we don't need you in our life anyway.  Never ever put yourselves above God, you must always put God first in your life, not the other way around.  Amen?!? I think so.  God is so much stronger than all of us put together.  He's not weak at all.  "Don't judge a person by what they look like on the outside, you should take the time and get to know this particular person."  You must love others as God has first loved us.  "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder."  It is what's on the inside that counts,not on the outside, got it!  Now go and try it.  Heal the sick, raise the dead, and preach the Gospel of our Lord.  He wrote the Bible for a reason and that is why.  Amen?!? I say, Amen! Thank you and God Bless!

~Emily   

P.S. If your interested in fashion, here's the link to my fashion blog: http://mymissionforfashion.blogspot.com/2013/09/winter-blues.html

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

What has God Been laying on your heart and mind lately?

Good Afternoon All,
   The idea for this blog came to me when I was reading a facebook post the other day.  It's weird how all of a sudden, when on facebook, some people's posts really speak to me and they begin to make me think about certain things and in specific areas of my Christian life.  Let's just jump into the Bible Verses that I chose for this particular blog topic.  "Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory: receiving the end of your faith, even the salvation of your souls." ~1 Peter 1: 8-9.  In other words, the Bible Verse means this: "Faith will be rewarded and evil will be punished.  But what should we do until then? The Bible's answer is very simple, but definitely not easy: Because we know the future, we must faithfully serve God here and now.  If today that means resolving a conflict, mending a hurt, working a real dull job, confronting a belligerent child, rebuilding a marriage, or just waiting for guidance-you have to do it all with the joy of God, who will return with his reward!" 

   This brings us to the title of this blog: "What has God been laying on your heart and mind lately?"  My answer to that, is quite a lot actually, I'm sorry but I have to vent here, please forgive me.  Anyway, there has been a lot of crap going on lately and I really hate it, especially when it involves my family.  I'm not going to go into detail here, because it's way too complicated to write about.  I'm just going to share my feelings and reflections on this topic.  I'm not the one to judge anybody, but God is and when he does, you better be prepared because it will not be pretty, you can trust me on that.  If you have faith in God, you will be rewarded, but if you don't then your in big trouble, all this evil will be punished on judgement day, if you repent now and want to be saved before it's too late, you better do it, because The Lord is waiting to hear from you so that he can forgive you and bless you abundantly with a better life.  Recently, the Lord has spoken to me, and I would like to share with you all what he said to me, through his own words.  Here we go: "My child, you are going to do great things." That was it, that was all he said to me.  Now, when I heard that I was shocked, because lately i've been struggling with myself about this online styling business that I started exactly 3 months ago; I have not seen any orders yet, but there are tons of people viewing my website and I appreciate that, but I can't help but wonder about how will I do all these things and why aren't certain people buying from me? Is it because I mentioned Jesus on my profile page for that website? Is it because they don't trust me? Are they skeptical about anything being ordered from online? I have all of these unanswered questions constantly going back and forth in my mind and on my heart.  But the bottom line is that I need to learn how to trust God with all of those unanswered questions, and I need to understand that God will answer me in His ever so perfect, timing.  So, until then, I'll keep praying and keep trusting that God has a plan for me and when he's ready, he will unveil it and bring it to my attention, I'll be waiting Lord.  

   I also chose a separate Bible Verse earlier to go with this blog too; here it is: "Seeing ye have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit unto unfeigned love of the brethren, see that ye love one another with a pure heart fervently." ~1 Peter 1:22.  In addition to what I've already posted, this Bible Verse is telling us this: "Sincere love involves selfless giving; a self-centered person can't truly love.  God's love and forgiveness free you to take your eyes off of yourself so that you are able to meet others' needs.  By sacrificing his life, Christ showed that he truly loves you.  Now you can love others by following his example and giving yourself sacrificially."  Does everybody understand what this is telling us?  I hope so.  I'm still trying to understand what exactly it is that The Lord is trying to tell me through this one verse.  I think what he's trying to say is that we all must learn how to give to others' selflessly.  There are way more people out there in this dark world who are worse off than we are, and we should be willing to look out for them and try to help them with certain aspects of what any of them may want or need.  I'm not really a people person as you can probably tell because I'm the shy one and keep to myself, but if I ever saw anyone that wanted or needed help, I would try and help them because I feel really bad for them.  But the truth is that that particular thing scares me, and I'm not at ease about that as you can tell.  However, I'm switching point of views here, if I were a homeless person, I would want somebody to reach out and help me, with high hopes that they could possibly help me to have a better life.  The current experience that I'm going through, isn't a fun one, but it has been quite the humbling experience thus far.  

   You see, we all need to really realize that we are very lucky, and we have been very fortunate and abundantly blessed so far.  You should learn how to love and accept things as they are and you need to try not to change them.  We all should be incredibly thankful for what we have and we need to learn how to be content with what we have and not be a greedy, self-centered person who always will want much more than what they already have.  You all need to learn how to focus on what you've been blessed with so far, and keep it at that.  You have to stop focusing on what you don't have, and just trust in God and have a strong faith that God will always provide for us, no matter what the issue is.  You have to ask God for what he wants to do with your life and you will have to receive it with an open heart and open mind.  As soon as He tells you what His will is for your life, you better do it.  Do not disobey God, and do not use Him casually, or only for when you need Him for some foolish thing, don't even bother, because he doesn't want to hear it.  Yes, He is a very gracious and loving Father, but you cannot go to Him for any type of selfish thing.  You must have a humble heart when you bow before God.  We were made to be His servants down here on earth, he doesn't care if you want to do it or not, it's not about you, it's all about Him.  He has to be the center of all of our lives.  "Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all else will be worked out for the best."  God has to be the foundation in everything from your business, your family, your relationships, everything.  If you do that, then you are all set.  All we need is God, Amen?!?  I can't hear you, let's say it again and together, Amen!?!? Thank you and God Bless!

~Emily P.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Jeremiah 29:11

Good Evening Everyone,
   I know that it has been quite a while since I've updated this blog and I'm sorry for taking so long to update it as well.  Anyway, when I wasn't updating this blog, I've been busy trying to promote my online styling business blog instead, and it hasn't been easy, that's for sure: however, it'll be worth it in the end.  This brings me to the inspiration of tonight's blog, it has been inspired by something on my facebook page called, Jesus Christ Savior by Beliefnet.  This is what the Bible verse said: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for peace and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." ~Jeremiah 29:11.  In other words this Bible verse is trying to say this: "We're all encouraged by a leader who stirs us to move ahead, someone who believes we can do the task he has given and who will be with us all the way.  God is that kind of leader.  He knows the future, and his plans for us are good and full of hope.  As long as God, who knows the future, provides our agenda and goes with us as we fulfill his mission, we can have boundless hope.  This does not mean we will be spared pain, suffering, or hardship, but that God will see us through to a glorious and victorious conclusion.

    This verse couldn't have come at a more convenient time as I am trying to promote my online styling business with Keaton Row.  During this time, it hasn't been an easy task as I have mentioned it above in the previous paragraph.  I've been feeling greatly discouraged with the online business because there are a few people viewing my web page, but none are buying anything and I still have no clients either, so I'm trying to expand my customer base at this point in time; that definitely isn't easy either because I'm not a real laid back type of person who likes to talk and socialize a lot, I'm known as an introvert whose shy and has very little confidence in the things that I do.  I'm putting my full faith and trust in the Lord on this particular subject, it is on His time and not on mine.  He's the one who knows exactly what his plans are for my life, that he has abundantly blessed me with.  It does take a lot of time and patience for these things to start succeeding, this is a very difficult goal for me to achieve, as you can probably tell.  The Lord has provided me with a great opportunity here and I'm trying not to ruin it, if this is God's Will for me, then I will reign victoriously after all is said and done, do you see what I'm saying here? 

   There are certain people in my life who don't exactly have confidence in what I'm trying to do here, they think that I'll fail, grow discouraged, and give up.  But I'm not going to give up on this business that easily, this is something that I truly want to do and am passionate about, but I cannot do this alone; I cannot do anything on my own, I need God's help with this big task at hand.  I can do all things through him who strengthens me.  This is a learning process and I know that there's a lot that I need to do before anything specific happens.  However, there are also a few people in my life who support me fully in this task and they would really like for me to do well with this business, and I don't want to let God or them down if I should fail.  I decided to give this a try and to see what will happen.  It's only been a few months, but I am hoping and praying that I'm doing all the right things in regards to Keaton Row.  I've been posting my looks on my own facebook page, twitter page, on blogspot, google, and even random people's facebook pages and I have received mixed comments on this styling subject.  I've been told that I need to become a better writer, I need to have more confidence, and that I'm a religious freak, and then on a more positive note, I was told that my writing is good, but I need to work on my punctuation a bit more, and I need to have a different way of writing when it comes to this consulting job.  It's really a challenge to keep my Christian life separate from my business life, because being a Christian plays a big role in my life with both my religious life and business life; so I need to learn how to balance both aspects of my life and that will not be easy, but I can do this.  So, I just want to share a big thank you and appreciation for those that are both supporting me and criticizing me in this next large part of my life, I look forward to hearing further comments in the future on my styling business and my writing.  Thank you and God Bless!

~Emily P.

Monday, July 8, 2013

Trusting God in these Difficult Times.

   How can we trust in God during these difficult times?  I find myself asking this question more often than not, especially lately because as you all know, I've started my own type of fashion styling business online through Keaton Row, and honestly, I'm really starting to get pretty discouraged, I have been with Keaton Row for about 4 weeks now, and I still have no clients, even though I've done everything that they told me I should do to get these clients, still, no result, it really stinks, as you can probably tell.  I'm also constantly asking myself, " am I doing something wrong? why is this taking so long?" So far, there are no answers yet, I'm still waiting patiently, and trying to listen.  Anyway, this brings me to the Bible verse that I used for this blog today: "and I will make an everlasting covenant with them, to do them good; but I will put my fear in their hearts, that they shall not depart from me."  This was Jesus speaking to His people in Jeremiah 32:40.  In other words, Jesus means to say this:  "God uses His power to accomplish His purposes, through His people.  God doesn't give you power to be all that you want to be, but He does give you the power to be all that He wants you to be.  The people of Israel had to learn that trusting God meant radically realigning their purposes and desires with His.  He gave to them "one heart" toward Him (32:39).  We must develop that singleness of purpose to always love God above anything else." ~Jeremiah 32:36-42.  

      Here are my thoughts and reflections on the above Bible Verses: I feel like God is using His power through me, to help pull in more people to my church, that's why I'm writing this blog,  I'm trying to reach the lost and win them to Christ.  It's not easy, but I do it anyway, because that's what The Lord wants and needs me to do through Him.  This brings me back to my styling job,  I guess that the reason for me having this job is because I love fashion and style, and The Lord probably feels like since I have this job, and the fact that I'm a born-again Christian will help me to win the people to Christ, but how can I do that, if I don't even have any clients to do this for?  I strongly believe that this whole styling thing, is a big part of God's plan for me and my life, I haven't seen the results yet, but I trust in The Lord that he will reveal all the results in time, I just need to be patient, wait, listen, and keep praying about it, the more I pray about this, the better the results will be in the end.  I need to continue to be persistent with God, because that is what He wants and needs me to do.  I have to trust and have faith that if this is the Lord's Will for my life, then he will make it happen, and when it does happen, I'll be so excited and grateful to Him for having this styling business be a great success like my sister's photography business is and will continue to be, The Lord just has to be in the center of your life and your business for it to be a great success, know what I mean?  This brings me to the next object of this blog entry, I happened to come across this post on facebook, by someone that I don't even know, but she is a born again Christian just like myself, and she has a successful business, do you Know why? I do, it's because she has put God first before herself and her business, and that's why it's a great success, and I hope that it will continue to be.  This was what her post said the other day: "Pay attention to those pictures, numbers, songs, patterns, and ideas that you're always getting.  It could be God downloading to you a brilliant biz plan!"  It was written by Sandi Krakowski, and she made a good point.  I couldn't agree with her more, and that's the reason I decided to do my online styling business through Keaton Row with high hopes that it will be a great success like her own business, and other people's businesses as well. 

       She mentored to another person through facebook about her own business as well, and that is also a great success.  So, I know that in the end, The Lord will always provide no matter what you may need or ask for.  But you have to ask for it in His will, and not in your own will.  It has to be what God wants, not what you want.  Do you understand this? I sure do.  This brings me to my next subject, during church and through the Sermon yesterday, these words came to mind: "I'm just a born-again Christian whose living in a world full of sin and hate.  What can I do to make a difference in this world? This I do not know, but since I trust in The Lord with all my heart, I know that he'll help me to somehow make a difference in this world, even if it's something as small and as simple as a smile, or a hand shake, know what I mean? Where there's a will there's a way is what I always say, do you agree? I hope so.  I really don't how I'll do all that The Lord has planned for me, but whatever it is, he'll give me the strength and the power that I need to fulfill his purpose for my life.  After all, I'm living my life for Him, and not for myself.  If it were up to Him, he would have this entire world living for Him and not for ourselves.  The sad truth is that this world is a very selfish place to live in,  nobody cares about The Lord or if they keep sinning, if they like it, they'll keep doing it.  The people in this world think that we should worship the ground that they walk on, but that isn't so.  If anything, we should worship the ground that The Lord walks on, not what other people walk on.  It makes me sick honestly, can you blame me?  

   I know this sounds biased, but I hate the world that we live in, it sucks, and it isn't fun to live in.  I'd rather be with The Lord in paradise, than in this hateful, ugly world.  I can't wait for the day that The Lord comes back, can you? As soon as he does, those people that I hate and wish would disappear, full of sin, will be shocked and feel like absolute selfish jerks and idiots,  people need to change, or I'll make them change.  I've had enough of this crappy place and some of the people living in it, know what I'm saying?  Yeah, you do, and don't deny it, got it? Thank you, Lord, I love you, Amen!

~Emily

Monday, June 10, 2013

Three Questions

1.) Who are you letting determine how you act?

2.) Are you a scorner or a wise person?

3.) Do you really want to be wise?

    While I was reading my devotional last night, these 3 questions were brought to my attention and made me really think, so I did.  Then I prayed about them all, and The Lord answered them with these 3 following Bible Verses: "Are you a scorner or a wise person? You can tell by the way you respond to criticism.  Instead of tossing back a quick put-down or clever retort when rebuked, listen to what is being said.  Learn from your critics; this is the exact path to wisdom.  Wisdom begins with knowing God.  He gives insight into living because he created life.  To know God is not to just know the facts about Him, but to stand in awe of Him and have a relationship with Him.  Do you really want to be wise? Get to know God better and better."  That was from Proverbs 9:7-10.  Now, my answers to these three above questions were the exact opposite of what the Bible says.  For example, Who am I letting determine how I act?  My answer was, "Everyone around me, including the people that I work with, and certain customers."  I know that I shouldn't let anybody change my mood no matter what the situation is, but it does, I need to learn how to be wise, and to stand firm in my moods and the way that I act sometimes.  Nobody ever has a good day everyday, me especially, but you should learn how to act happy with the job that you have, no matter how much you hate it on particular days, I'm trying to be and act happy, but it's really not easy, I'm sure that everyone can relate to how I'm feeling about this, especially if you've worked in retail before, or still working there.  Being in retail is definitely not an easy job, but we should be thankful that we even have a job right now, because there are so many people out there who would kill to work in retail, even though it doesn't pay them that much, but so many people would kill to be getting that much money, no matter how little the amount may be, know what I mean?  

         Example number two is this: Are you a scorner or a wise person?  My answer was this, "I want to be a wise person, not a scorner, and finally, number three is this: Do you really want to be wise? My answer was this: "Yes, I do."  Here's Bible Verse number two: "The wisdom that we need has three distinct characteristics: (1) It is practical.  The wisdom from God relates to your life even during the most trying times.  It is not a wisdom isolated from suffering and trials.  This wisdom is the tool by which trials are overcome.  An intelligent person may have profound ideas, but a wise person puts profound ideas into action.  Intelligence will allow someone to describe several reasons why the car broke down.  The wise person chooses the most likely reason and proceeds to take action.  (2) It is divine.  God's wisdom goes beyond common sense.  Common sense does not lead us to choose joy in the middle of trials.  This wisdom begins with respect for God, leads to living by God's direction, and results in the ability to tell right from wrong.  It is a wisdom that James will describe at length in Chapter 3.  (3) It is Christlike.  Asking for wisdom is ultimately asking to be like Christ as the "wisdom of God" (1 Corinthians 1:24; 2:1-7).  "By "wisdom," James is talking not only about knowledge, but about the ability to make wise decisions in difficult circumstances.  Whenever we need wisdom, we can pray to God and he will supply exactly what we need.  Christians never need to grope about it in the dark, hoping to stumble upon answers.  We can ask for God's wisdom to guide our choices."  ~James 1:5.  My thoughts and reflections on the above Bible Verse will be this: I've had my fair share of trials and tribulations in the past, and even now.  For example, I'm struggling so badly trying to find another job that will promise me 22 hours a week, that I'm about ready to just give up, but I know that I can't, because God has a plan for me, and he's never given up on me, even in the toughest of times.  I'm so unhappy with my job that I wish I could just quit, but I can't because I have bills to pay, and a future to plan for, Lord, please help, that's all I can say right now, Amen. Anyway, the last and final Bible Verse is this: "Many believers want more of God's kindness ("grace") and peace, but they are unwilling to put forth the effort to get to know Him better through Bible study and prayer.  To enjoy the privileges God offers us freely, we must grow in our knowledge of God and Jesus our Lord."  ~2 Peter 1:2.  "The power to lead a godly life doesn't come from within us, but from God.  Because we don't have the resources to live full of "glory and virtue", God makes us "partakers of the divine nature" to keep us from sin and help us to live for Him.  When we are born again, God by his Spirit empowers us with his own goodness." ~2 Peter 1:3-4.  I'm sorry about all of these Bible Verses, but it is the answer to those questions that I started with in the beginning of this blog, I hope that you all read this, and ask yourselves those same questions, and see what your answers are and so are God's.  That's what I did, and I came up with all of this.  Anyway, my thoughts and reflections on the previous Bible Verse up above are this: when I was born again, I've never felt so better in my entire life than that very day, when I rose up out of that water.  I felt like a whole new person after that had happened, I can only hope and pray that I continue to act like that new person, from that memorable day.  However, since then, a lot of changes has happened in my life, not job wise of course, but in other parts of my life, like Derek for example, he has turned out to be the perfect guy for me, even though we have our arguments and disagreements sometimes, but in the end, we still love each other, and work through it every single day, at least we try to work on it every single day.  

   Life never has been and never will be easy, even with Jesus on your side, life still isn't easy, but it's bearable.  God is constantly putting us through a testing period, and it's only because he loves us so much, and he wants to continue to make our faith and relationship much stronger with Him, that's all he wants, he wants a closer and more intimate relationship with you, you just have to want to become closer to Him.  How awesome would it be for you to actually sit on Jesus' lap and talk to Him face to face?  It would be absolutely amazing, wouldn't it be? I sure think so! Amen!  
(This was written by Joyce Meyer.)
~Emily

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Forgiveness

  I figured that instead of saying hey all and whatnot, we'll just jump right in to the new blog entry.  So, as I was reading my twitter feed a few weeks ago, Joyce Meyer posted about Romans 12:21 and she said after posting it, to reflect on it for a while.  So, I did, and as it turns out, it has been weighing on my heart rather heavily.  This is what Romans 12:21 says: "Be not overcome with evil, but overcome evil with good." ~Romans 12:21.  "In this day of constant lawsuits and incessant demands for legal rights, Paul's command sounds almost impossible.  When someone hurts you deeply, instead of giving him what he deserves, Paul says to befriend him.  Why does Paul tell us to forgive our enemies? (1) Forgiveness may break a cycle of retaliation and lead to mutual reconciliation.  (2) It may make the enemy feel ashamed and change his ways. (3) By contrast, returning evil for evil hurts you just as much as it hurts your enemy.  Even if your enemy never repents, forgiving him will free you of a heavy load of bitterness." Once again this is Romans 12:21.  Forgiveness involves both attitudes and actions.  If you find it hard to feel forgiving toward someone who hurt you, you can at least try to act forgiving.  If appropriate, tell this person you would like to heal your relationship.  Give him a helping hand.  Send him a gift.  Smile at him.  Many times you will discover that right actions lead to right feelings." ~Romans 12:21.

          After reading and reflecting on all of those above Bible verses, this is what I received from it: No matter how difficult it is to forgive someone, especially someone who has hurt you greatly in the past, you still need to do the Christian thing, and really be forgiving to others, just as God has forgiven us.  You see, you can't live your life holding grudges against certain people, because if you do, then it will weigh on you for the rest of your life, and since you are not able to forgive others, you'll be living your life with constant pain and regret, and that is so not good for you or your health.  It can possibly ruin your life, know what I mean? As I've said many times before, you need to learn how to let go and let God take control of your life, because apart from Him we are nothing, and that's the cold, hard, truth.  I'm not here to offend anyone or make anyone feel guilty about what they've done in the past, I'm just trying to redirect them down the right path, is that too hard to ask? I sure hope not.  For others it might be, but for me, not so much.  Before I came to God, I was a very lost and hurt soul, as most of you that know me, knew that, and in the past, no matter how hard any of you tried, I still did whatever I wanted, no matter what.  I didn't care and constantly disobeyed The Lord, and my family, and that was a giant, no-no, see what I mean? But then one day, I just got sick and tired of making the same exact mistakes over and over again, so I just decided to let go of everything, and let The Lord take control of my life, because He knows what's better for me and for all of us actually, I just wish that certain people in this life, weren't so stubborn and stuck in their ways, that they will make excuses to not go to church, and whatnot, do you understand what I'm saying here? I sure hope that you do.  I'm not saying that I'm perfect, because I'm definitely not, none of us are.  The only one that is perfect, is our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Amen? 

          On a completely unrelated topic, I just wanted to share an experience I had this past weekend, when I was in Rhode Island with my significant other and his mom.  Anyway, I never thought that I would ever be able to have a chance to meet this particular person because she lives so far away, but when I did, it was a great blessing because I never knew that she was such an amazing person and a very strong, Christian woman, because my significant other didn't tell me how much his mom was a devout Christian.  Back to the experience, I can just imagine how difficult it is for my significant other to say good bye to his biological mom.  If it were me, it would be very difficult for me to say good bye to my mom, because without her, I think I'd be lost.  When she left to go to Italy, I couldn't help but feel bad for Derek.  I just wanted to cry for him, it must hurt greatly.  I am really, quite blessed to have Derek in my life, and I can't imagine hurting him like he must have felt when his mom left his father all those years ago.  I don't mean to be negative and hurt anybody here, but I just can't help, but feel bad for him.  I guess that God had other plans for Derek's biological mom and his dad.  His dad is now married to yet another amazing woman, with an absolutely gorgeous family with four dogs and two cats.  We are all incredibly blessed.  Can you imagine taking someone for granted like your mom, when someone else in this world is praying for an actual mom to come back into their lives and never leaving them again?  I can't imagine that, nor would I want to imagine that, it just hurts too much, ya know?  I guess this is another example of forgiveness and how hard it can be to forgive those who have hurt me and us in the past.  

       Derek has turned out to be an amazing and strong, Christian man, and yes, I'm definitely blessed and very thankful to have met him and now he is in my life from now until forever, I hope.  Seeing what Derek has gone through and still continues to go through, it makes me want to try and be a better person and woman for him, because he deserves to have a good woman like myself, in his life.  I can't be his mom, but I can be an amazing, strong, Christian girlfriend, and hopefully a good wife and mom in the future.  Thank you, Lord, I love you, amen! and God Bless you all!

~Emily


 

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Baptism Part Two

Hi all,
   I know that I've written a previous blog entry on Baptism, but in this post, it will be continued, and I hope and pray that the message in this blog entry reaches out to certain people who need to hear the truth about Baptism.  This is the Bible verse that I chose for this entry:  "Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost: teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen." ~Matthew 28: 19-20.  However, in other words this verse is telling us this: "The disciples were to baptize people because baptism unites all of the believers with Jesus Christ in their death to sin and resurrection to the new life.  Baptism symbolizes submission to Christ, willingness to live God's way, and identification with God's covenant people.  How is Jesus present with us? Jesus was with the disciples physically until he ascended into heaven, and then spiritually through The Holy Spirit (Acts 1:4).  The Holy Spirit would be Jesus' presence that would never leave them (John 14:26).  Jesus continues to be with us today through his Spirit.  The Old Testament prophecies and genealogies in the book of Matthew present Jesus' credentials for being King of the world-not a military or political leader, as the disciples had originally hoped, but a spiritual King who can overcome all evil and reign in the heart of every single person.  If we refuse to serve the King faithfully, we are disloyal subjects, fit only to be banished from the Kingdom.  We must make Jesus King of our lives and worship him as our Savior, King, and Lord." ~Matthew 28:19-20.

        My thoughts and reflections on the above Bible verses are this: when I was baptized a second time, it made me really realize that I was getting rid of my old life, washing it away with the water, and starting a brand new beginning, like my boyfriend will be doing this coming Sunday, and I couldn't be more proud of him for doing this.  It truly means that he's getting rid of his old life full of sin and turning over a new leaf so to speak.  This is quite a big step in his Spiritual walk with The Lord,  I can only hope and pray that he will continue to walk down the right path for the rest of his life, no matter what happens, with our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.  I want him to walk and be blessed forever, because he really and truly deserves it.  He has gone through a lot of crap in his past, just like the rest of us have, but thank God for saving him and bringing him closer to The Lord than he's ever been before.  Now listen, when I first met him, I didn't think that he cared at all about The Lord and my church, but what I soon found out, was the fact that he is learning a lot from the church, and I hope from me, because of God, he called my boyfriend to become more involved with the church, by being a greeter, getting the alter ready, and joining the young adult group with me among others.  The group may be small at the moment, but it will grow and revive soon like this world and our church will.  In honesty, I prefer it to be a small group because we each get equal attention, and we're not constantly fighting back and forth about getting our group leader's attention.  I can only hope and pray that when our group grows, we'll each get equal attention from our leader and from each other.  Do you understand what I mean? You most likely do, but you won't comment on it, but that's okay because that's what I figured anyway.

          Don't get me wrong, I appreciate all the feed back that I can get, but I also hope that nobody negatively comments on it, because this is such a big part of my life, and any comment that is negative, will probably hurt, but I shouldn't let it get to me anyway.  We need to learn how to stand firm and let nothing or anybody move us.  We walk by faith, not by sight, got it? I hope so.  Anyway, less about me, and more about God, Amen? I think so.  Let's get back on subject here, the true meaning of baptism is the fact that you are ridding yourself of your sin in your old way of life, and starting fresh, which means that since you are getting baptized, you cannot fall back to the way you used to live your life, you have to live your life fully according to God's own will, not your own.  If God asks you to do something, then you better do it, because if you don't, then you are in big trouble.  Don't question it, don't fight it, just go ahead and do it, got it?!? I hope you do.  I mean I'm not innocent here, when God asks me to do something, I sometimes question it, fight it, wrestle with it, but then I eventually bite the bullet, and do it anyway, even though I don't want to do it, I still do it, because it's what God wants, not what I want.  It's his opinion that matters, not yours.  You cannot lean on your own understanding, but God's understanding, because with Him all things are possible, kabiche? Let's hope so.  Remember, " I can do all things through He that gives me strength." Amen? Yes, Lord, Amen! In the future, I pray that once my boyfriend becomes baptized, I pray that God effects his life just as much as God has effected my own life, and will continue to bless our lives, because without God, I definitely wouldn't be here right now.  
  
   I'd probably be dead somewhere that wasn't as pleasant as it is right here right now.  However, all these material things will wash away in the blink of an eye, our prize is what lies ahead of us in heaven with our heavenly father and his son, Jesus Christ, do you get my point here? I hope and pray that you do.  The truth is, we have to act and be not of this world, because that is what God wants us to be.  CS Lewis says that we're not of this world in the first place, so we better wake up and start acting like it, got it?!? I praise you, Lord, Jesus! Thank you, Lord, I love you, Amen!

~Emily P.

Friday, March 15, 2013

Feeling Stuck?

Hey All,
   I know it's been a couple of months since I've updated this blog, but I'm back now and be prepared because it's a long blog entry.  This Bible verse that I used for this blog entry is based off of Ecclesiastes 4:9-12. Enjoy: "Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labor.  For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up.  Again, if two lie together, then they have heat: but how can one be warm alone? And if one prevail against him, two shall withstand him; and a threefold cord is not easily broken."  In other words, it's telling us this: "Cooperating with others has advantages.  Life is designed not for isolation, but for companionship; not for loneliness, but for intimacy.  Some people prefer isolation because they feel that they cannot trust anyone.  We are not here on earth to serve ourselves, but to serve God and others.  Don't isolate yourself from others and "go it alone." Seek companionship and be a team member instead.

         Let's see, where do I even start to relate to this above Bible verse? Well, here goes, I know what it's like to feel lonely, heck, I even know what it's like to "go it alone," so to speak, all my life, I've been lonely and had acquaintances, but not exactly friends.  It feels as if, I've been fighting this lifelong battle all by myself, with absolutely no help at all whatsoever, until I found God, because without God, I probably wouldn't be here right now.  So, quite frankly, I'm just tired of it and wish that it would just disappear forever.  I'm done fighting and trying so hard to be something that I'm just not.  I just want to feel relaxed and let God fight the rest of this ugly, messy, battle that's been going on inside me for far too long, do you know what I mean? I sure hope so.

         I have this feeling of angst inside me, and I really want to let it go, but for some odd reason, I just can't let it go.  The fact that I can't let it go, is literally just killing me and ripping me apart from the inside out.  I'm turning into a monster, because of this feeling, and I absolutely hate it, it needs to disappear right here, right now, it isn't pretty, must. go. away.right.now.  Please Lord, help this monstrosity disappear from me and my life right now.  I feel like it's time to spread my wings and fly, but the question is, what's holding me back and why? Please Lord, give me the answer, so I can get it all figured out, before it's way too late.  Help me to spread these wings and just fly, so that I can just live this life the way that you want me to live it, Lord.  You put me down here on this earth for a reason, now help me to find that reason, Lord, so that I can live it out for you, Lord, not for me, but for you, my Lord.  At the end of my life, on that final judgement day, I want to be able to say that I used everything you've given me, to do for you, Lord, do you understand me, Lord? I definitely hope so. Thank you, Lord, I love you, Amen." Does everybody else out here, understand what this message is trying to say to you from the Lord, through me?  let's hope so because that is what I'm trying to do to reach the lost, so they can become saved before it's too late, and you go to straight down to hell, for the rest of your life in eternal damnation.  But when you go to heaven, it will all be worth the fighting for in the end.

         Heaven is going to be one very large, unending party.  That sounds good, right? The answer is yes because in Heaven, you'll see Jesus and His heavenly father, all of their angels, and the best part is the fact that you'll be reunited with all of your friends and family, and loved ones, who left too soon, and went before us, including all of the pets you've had before they died.  They're waiting to greet you, once you've gone home to The Lord at the very end of your life.  Got it? Good! Now repent and change your ways immediately, he's waiting! Amen?!?!? I say, Amen!!! To be continued...eventually.

 ~Emily P.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

What is Passion?

         I honestly don't know how to start this blog entry, so I'm just going to jump right into it.  Here goes: What is passion?  I honestly don't know how this title goes with this blog entry, it just came to me last night as I was praying, reading, and reflecting on my devotional for the night.  I'm going to base this blog entry on Genesis 49:4-28, I know I know, this is quite the long Bible verse, but I'll try to explain it as best as I can okay? "Unstable as water, thou shalt not excel; because thou wentest up to thy father's bed; then defiledst thou it; he went up to thy couch."  Now you're all probably thinking, what on earth is this verse supposed to be telling us?  "The oldest son was supposed to receive a double inheritance, but Reuben lost this special honor.  He was very unruly and untrustworthy, especially during his younger days, he had gone so far as to sleep with one of his father's concubines.  Jacob could not and would not give the birthright blessing to such a dishonorable son."

         To me, the above verse means that the decisions, that were made in your past will become what might or might not happen in your present and also in your future.  If God is not pleased with what you have done in the past, he will try to redirect you to your present and future decisions, but before this happens, you have to come to him and repent and turn completely away from what was your past.  If you still live in the past, then you cannot move ahead to the future, your past is what will hold you back in all choices you make, you need to take a very bold step ahead.  If God wants you to do it, then you better obey and do it.  You need to be ready to say yes and leave everything that you have behind, so that your future can be full of blessings and rewards.  If God is all you have, then you have all that you need, Amen?  

        " I have waited for thy salvation, O Lord."  "In the middle of his prophecy to Dan, Jacob had exclaimed, " I have waited for thy salvation, O Lord."  He was emphasizing to Dan that he would be a strong leader only if he trusted in God, and not in his own natural strength or ability.  Those who are strong, attractive, or talented often find it much easier to trust in themselves rather than in God, who was the one who gave them these gifts.  You must always remember to thank God for what you are and have, so that your trust does not become misplaced."  Know what I mean?  Anyway, my opinion of this above verse is the fact that you cannot be selfish, and give yourself all the Glory, because it is not all about you, it's all about God, it always has been and always will be exactly like that.So, let's keep it that way, got it?!? I certainly hope so.  

           Let's move on to verses 23 and 24: "The archers have sorely grieved him, and shot at him, and hated him.  But his bow abode in strength, and the arms of his hands were made strong by the hands of the mighty God of Jacob; (from thence is the shepherd, the stone of Israel)."  These verses express God's repeated rescues of Joseph when his enemies were attacking him.  So often we struggle without thinking that God is able to fight our battles, whether they are against people with weapons or against spiritual forces.  Joseph was able to draw closer to God as adversity had mounted.  To trust God to rescue you shows that you have great faith.  Can you trust him when injury or persecution is being directed at you? Such spiritual battles require teamwork between courageous, faithful people, and a great and mighty God." Amen?!? Amen!
      
            My thoughts on the above verses are this: In these past few months,I've been facing a difficult decision about what I should do next in my career path.  I've been praying about it every night, and I still can't figure out what to do next.  I'm not entirely sure what my next step should be after this.  I know I should probably learn how to drive and such, but I feel like there's no time and money in order to do that.  Since I don't drive, I'm very limited in what I can do and where I can go in order to find a new job.  I'm getting older, we're all getting older, so now would be the time to start changing things for the better.  I can't work part-time for the rest of my life, it's not getting me anywhere.  I need health insurance and I need to be able to save up for a future wedding, house, and family.  But I can't do any of that until I get driving and get my own car, because of my accident back in 2008, I really hate cars, money, and driving, none of those are fun at all.  It just seems to get me into more trouble, which I'm trying to avoid.  What I mean by that is no more accidents, and no more stupidity.  I need to start making a lot wiser decisions.  I hate feeling useless and helpless, it's really dragging me down.  There's so much that I could be doing if I only had a full-time job, a car, and I know how to drive.  It gets really old having to rely on everyone else around you to get you to the places that you need to go.  

           You can call me a hypocrite, I don't even care anymore, I'm letting this fear stand in the way of my life.  I need to stop that right away, but it's not easy to just change in the blink of an eye.  These changes take a whole lot of time to start working in this life I'm supposed to be living for God, but let's be honest here, am I really living the way that God wants me to live my life? Somehow, I doubt it.  I feel like I'm trying so hard, but it's not getting me anywhere fast any time soon.  I as well as the rest of you reading this, wants to see the Church grow and revive, and we also want to see all of these changes in America.  We need God in America again.  We always will be and always have been "One nation under God, not One nation under man."  This world is just a mess, and something good better come out of this soon, or else this world will be going to "hell in a hand basket."  Are you catching my drift here? I do hope so. God Bless America! Amen!!!
~Emily